Today I pulled a card from my Crone Tarot bag, saying to the Universe: Guide my hand to choose the card I need to see today. I pulled the Fool. What a surprise! If I had pulled the Fool a week ago, I would have put it right back and pretended it never happened. Last thing I wanted to see over the past week or so is anything to do with a leap of faith or enthusiasm. I have been feeling the absolute antithesis of faith and enthusiasm lately. BUT in the past day or two, I’ve turned a corner and am starting to feel like I can face the world again…face myself, face my responsibilities… Seeing the Fool was a bit of a shock… heck, at least it wasn’t the Tower. Not sure I could have dealth with that!
Anyway… The point is, the Fool in the Crone Tarot is very comforting to me. I know that if I go ahead and venture into that great blue unknown, her dark and soft cloak is still there, nearby, to shelter me. I know also that it can be a warning – don’t go blundering ahead without looking, silly! I know, I know. I think this past week or two have taught me some lessons in overdoing it. I over did it, and I paid the price – hence, I have a disastrously messy house and lots of undone tasks, and I’ve spent more time sleeping over the past couple weeks than I really have a right to… But I digress. I’m looking ahead now. I’ve been more energetic this week and able to get things done. Next week is spring break so I have time off, and I WILL get caught up on chores and other tasks. I will also sleep – not the sleep of the depressed but the sleep of the person who is taking time to rest and recuperate, in a healthy way, not to avoid life but to revive in order to live it better.
Here’s the meaning from the Crone manual: The Cloak of the Crone is all you hear, all you see, all you know of your everyday world. Only a
Fool would try to see what lies beneath. Only a Fool abandons the known for the unknown and perhaps
unknowable. Only a Fool risks becoming lost in the Void, becoming a tiny star in endless space.
A force beyond your small self opens a new space in your soul. You are impelled to start on a new
path. One in which you cannot predict the final destination, or possibly even the next step, but feels
inevitable all the same. Can you truly trust the Universe? In the Void, where there is no up and no down,
you can do nothing else. Remember there is a part of you that wants this, that welcomes it, because it
knows becoming formless and timeless is what you need to create a new future.
See what I mean? Up until a day or so ago, this card would have scared the sh*t out of me. But today, I feel ready for the Fool. I welcome her…with a bit of trepidation, but also excitement.
From Tarot.com (hey, I spent 5 Karma Coins to get this!): You inhabit that transitional world between the past and the future.
The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.
The Fool is associated with circumstances that are unique, unpredictable, inscrutable -- one who is suspended between realities. The Fool is often portrayed as an empty headed simpleton unaware of the forces that move him to and fro, following his impulses. But tradition tells us that this Fool has a secret that protects him: the magic of synchronicity.
He proceeds without calculation, spontaneously, without hesitation or resistance. If you trust in your own mystery and that of Divine Providence, you can step into a new realm of opportunities. For now, trust your instincts. If you have no expectations, you have nothing to lose.
Hmmm, I’m not sure I like that very last line… It seems a bit negative… But putting a positive spin on it, I guess I’ll be open to whatever is to come!
I also looked at the card in the Motherpeace Tarot. The LWB doesn’t have much to say… I suppose I need to spend the money and get the bigger book. But the imagery is fun and hopeful, for the most part…although I do get a sense of recklessness from the card, especially with the alligator right there and that vulture looking down upon the Fool kinda like, “Hmm, lunch?” Anyway, I think this particular card merits more study… And overall, I’m pleased to see The Fool today. In the end, it’s all about perspective anyway, right?